It's Been a Minute!

Oh boy, where to begin?

It's true my life has been turned upside down in the last couple months. It's hard to keep you updated with Chris' job, and confidentiality with foster care. Now that a few things have changed, I'm going to do the best I can to fill you in on all things Crazy B!

We recently had 2 children come stay with us. They were great in the beginning. We've always set out to take in all God sends us, and to not ask any questions. We learned a valuable lesson with these girls... What we can and can't handle! Times have changed since we last did foster care, and now we have Jaisalyn to think about. She is and will always be the most important part of the equation. Chris has been away with work, and it left me to take care of 3 small children alone. We had some good times, but the bad began to overrun the good, and it got increasingly difficult to give the adequate time and attention all 3 needed. The girls have moved on, and we are deciding together how we want to move on with care.

Chris has come and gone, gone and come! He loves his new job, and it keeps him super busy. We have already been in NC for a whole year. We miss our family, and our working out our long term plans for retiring closer to home. Everyday it changes though. We dream of traveling overseas to Germany or Italy, and one day settling down closer to home... ie the other side of the US!


There's not really a lot going on with us; we're just try to embrace every minute we get together. That's the important part these days. We are going on a family vacay this weekend, and couldn't be more excited... it's the first in a longgggg time! I'm also planning on making a trip to SC to see some good friends who are about to PCS. As always we are in the works for a trip to WA, we'll see how that goes!

Sorry it's not very entertaining, or exciting for that matter... just a small update! Hopefully, I can be back to my witty self soon, and be able to discuss more details.... safety first y'all!!! <3

Love always,

Queen B

Jais and Daddy opening Daddy's presents!

and of course trying them on!!!

A Renewed Faith

It's been like forever and a day since I last did this! For those who avidly follow me, I apologize, for those who don't you didn't miss anything! I've been busy renewing my faith. I've recently participated in The Daniel Fast with some of the ladies from our church. For those not familiar..... it's really hard!!!! Like super hard! I didn't even do the hard core version, but I cut out all caffeine, junk food, sugars, deserts, soda, and anything else unnecessary for survival. It was a 3 week fast, that ended with a fantastic trip to Fort Caswell; for a ladies retreat. I had so much fun, and spent 2 whole nights away from my babykins! It was hard (all of it) but so worth it.

My biggest reason for doing the fast was to get closer to God, and try and learn my purpose. As you all have gathered in just the few very honest posts I've written; I've struggled with my faith. I've definitely struggled with God, and just needed a reboot! Just so happens that the theme of the women's retreat was..... wait for it.... PURPOSE!!! Shut up! I know! God put all this in my path at these very moments! Amaze balls! Anywho, all along the way, God was acknowledging my hard work, and I felt like the fast was working! It was literally like everything backed up this decision. The pastor talked at every service about the book of Daniel, and my daily bible study went hand and hand! Seriously, how does that happen??

I'm so much happier, I've gone off all my meds... sleeping, depression, and anxiety; and I feel better than ever! Chris came home from a work trip the last 2 weeks and joined me in what I was doing in the fast. I feel it in my everyday life. I feel it in our family, in our relationships, and how we treat each other. It's been wonderful.

Life is hard, it's always changing. The one thing that stays the same is God. He is always there! We are the only ones that move! Crazy crazy that there is someone who loves us that much, no matter what we do. Even if we don't deserve it!!!!!!

So, I'm done with the fast, and ohhhhh boy did my body punish me. I was sooo excited to catch up on all the chocolate I had missed out on from Valentine's day! I learned a lot about my body and eating habits, and how I'm too old to handle all the fast food anymore. Gahhh I hate saying that out loud.

What I hope to gain from this, even if you are not a believer; is that you know there's always an upward path. You are not alone in your travesties. Someone out there somewhere has gone through what you are. Reach out, get help. You never know who you could help in the process!

Back at it,
Queen B

Who drank the hater-ade?

I get it we all have preconceived notions when meeting someone for the first time. It takes a whole second and we as females have sized them up. We've determined how their marriage works, how they take care of their children, if their a good home keeper, and if they have any personality at all! We are all different and your sizing up is probably different from your neighbors, but you get the gist. 

My question is why?? Why do we have so much hate and animosity towards each other as females? Why are we threatened by others' relationships, friendships, and marriages? Why do we feel entitled to have an opinion? Why do we feel a need to gossip and bad mouth on the outside; no details... Just the info you think you know! 

We are all guilty of drinking the haterade from time to time. We all can get envious or even jealous of others. As females though we are the worst! It's almost like we want to be better than all others. I myself have been envious of others, it's just part of nature. However, it's the way we handle it... In my humble opinion... That differentiates the girls from the women! 

I challenge each of you to love instead of hate! Our jobs are hard, being a mom and wife is hard! There's no right or wrong way to do it. So if you catch your self spewing garbage about your neighbor or the mom at the grocery store, do me a favor and take a look in the mirror! You are not perfect! I am not perfect! No one is perfect! Quit being a hypocrite and pretending your life is Grand and that you have any room to talk! Work on you and why you feel the need to be so negative and  bad mouth others.

Love to all, 

Queen B